Week 3: silver linings for the dark times

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So, Lets start with the charts.

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Alright,

So there all that is. If you compare it to last week  you'll see that I performed within 500 steps as last week. That with a whole day in bed feeling really worn out. I am actually very proud of my self. As far as my activity is concerned. Later in this post I will be beating myself up for loosing control over my eating habit thanks to a pool party, and the holiday. But we will get to that later.

As for my activity, Really really strong showing T, W ,Th, F then Saturday when I got up in the morning, I played video games for several hours back to back. A Habit I have been trying to break myself of, but as the long weekend loomed I just wanted to fall into the old habit. Then, around 7p went to see X-Men. didn't realize it was going to be so long or I would have sat on the end to be bale to get up and walk a flight of stairs or something. but I felt trapped so I just sat, and sat. After the movie my friends came over to hang out with my wife and I and drink, and play Rockband, and some board games. Ended up staying awake till 1:00a/1:30a which is probably the leading cause of my completely ruined weekend. Once I let myself drink a little, it was all down hill.

Sunday was my friends pool party I got over there at about 4p and was asked to bring some shiner, I don't care for it much so I picked up that and some Henry's Hard Soda. They where cooking up all kinds of good stuff and I just let myself graze, swim some, graze some, drink some, swim some, graze some. When I got back home I recounted in my mind all the things I ate. THIS WAS MY MISTAKE. I should have been recording it as I went along, and I would have had the chance to stop myself. but I didn't. I added it all up, and it seems I ate over 4000 calories. It's time to show you the charts.

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It's important to remind myself. It's okay to fail. I just need to push forward and put it behind me. Each day is a new day and a new challenge. I was so upset about Sunday, that Monday I just lost it also, I ordered a large pizza and ate the whole thing. Basically forcing myself into a shame spiral. I should have instead written this post yesterday and worked out all my self hate onto the blog and get ti out into the world. but instead I internalized it and made more bad choices.

Today is a new day. Tuesday. I am into week 4 of this adventure. New challenges await and If I manage to stay on track all week, I will be able to undo the wreckage from this holiday weekend, and possibly even make progress toward my goal.

Thanks again for your time in reading this nonsense, It helps me to get it out of my head and onto the page.

-Matthew

BONUS CAT PICTURE:

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